UGH
So it seems as if I will never feel better...
Once again I'm on antibiotics (for the FIFTH time in three months) and have been throwing up again the past two nights. It's really weird cause I feel fine during the day and then slowly over the course of the evening I start feeling really crappy and then end up puking my guts out really late at night. I'm taking the diclectin again but it doesn't seem to help. So I don't know if this is a symptom of the infection or if I will just continue barfing til the baby is born.
OH I wish it was August already. Then our house would be sold (hopefully) and we would be living in my parents basement and have some extra money and the baby would be here. I am not a patient person and really just want to meet this little person that's inside me. I know I should be enjoying these last months that Zach and I will have as a couple but I just want the pregnancy over. I am seriously not sure if I will want to have more children after this. I keep hearing stories about how women get sicker with each pregnancy and don't want to go through this again!
I have been trying to pack and clean the house and it is not going well. It sucks cause I feel like crap and know I need to do all this work and just feel too overwhelmed cause our house is such a mess! It's a vicious cycle! I don't know where to start. We have sooo much crap! Zach and I have really learned this past year how much stuff we don't need to live. Being poor really helps put things in perspective. When you can't afford to buy little things you really learn what you need. So thus is the basis for our move. We want to get rid of all the clutter and try to live simply. And sharing a house is not really so uncommon in other cultures - it's our "western mentality" that's so used to overconsumption and thinking that every person should have a house to themselves when it's such a waste of energy and money.
If you ever get the chance to read the MCC cookbook More With Less I highly recommend it. It's full of ideas on how to buy food in bulk and cook great meals without spending tons of money.
Anyway now that my rant is over I think I will sign off. It's time to take another pill anyway...


2 Comments:
moving is always a good time to throw a bunch of stuff out (or give away)...i hope you feel better really soon, dana. have a good day today.
oh sweetheart! i'm so sorry you are feeling so crappy! not fun! BUT the good news is, i've heard the OPPOSITE, that most pregnancies get BETTER the second, or third time around...so be hopeful! And once you see this little "creature" you won't even think twice about having another one. As hard as it is, DO enjoy these last few months together, nothing will EVER be the same again - and your marriage will never be like it was - not always a bad thing, it will just be different. And take time for YOURSELF! cause you won't have ANY of that ever again either! haha. becoming a Mommy is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and despite the sickness and lack of energy of pregnancy, and the permanent changes in life, my body & my marriage - i WOULD do it over, and i WILL do it again.
i love ya, and i'm sending hugs. Be encouraged sweetie!
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